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I'm the pathetic friend?Do not think of me
As the pathetic friend,
As the worthless one -
Without a happy end.
Don't you dare belittle me.
Today, I have had enough;
I snapped and I shot back
To show you I've had it tough.
Do you think you are better?
Better and smarter than us all?
Wait, as I'm coming for you,
We'll see who takes the fall.
Just another love poemThis is quite informal,
But let me say it here.
This poem is about
What I hold most dear.
A few simple words from him
Can make me feel so glad.
And when he insults me,
I don't even feel that mad.
I'm the girl who made the vow -
To never fall for someone.
My heart once woven tightly,
Has suddenly become undone.
Friends smile and leavePeople are really fucked up.
There isn't much to say.
I hate all my friends, because
They always lie and betray.
No friendship lasts long as
True colours will show in time.
The patterns of black and white
The sign of all their crimes.
''Friends'' play you in their games;
They love to cheat and deceive.
Readying you for your death,
Then they'll smile and leave.
Blood carvings of a heartI'm sick from this love, priceless
Thoughts of you every night.
Despair clings on my heart;
Realizing I'm not alright.
I'm sick from this love, thinking -
Of the patterns of the knife.
Crimson flowing with beauty,
Tainting the canvas of my life.
I'm sick from this love, tumbling
Dark red droplets start to smear.
Showing the carve of a heart
And everything I dream and fear.
Words of a muteIt all started with you
This obsession with pain
Although you had nothing
Nothing for you to gain
I tried to feign ignorance
Turns out I was too weak
Listening to your torments
I've forgotten how to speak
One night, the words got to me
Tears were tumbling down my face
My soul will never be the same
Anger has had it replaced
Don't be ashamed to cryDo you know that feeling of exasperation?
That means you are giving up, slowly.
You just stare around you and wonder
Where was the life you once loved so much?
Where was the life where everything was simple?
Where was the life where there were no worries?
You stare intently stare at nothing.
Just a space filled with nothing but blankness.
You analyse your life and how much it's worth,
Thinking no one loves you, no one even cares.
The ache how can you describe that ache?
Literally drying your heart as if it was wet laundry.
Your breath grows heavier, slower
Your dainty fingers dance below your pool of eyes,
The moisture stains your finger and you stare
There's only one way to let out the pain:
Cry and release the demons.
Dead yet alivethInk about a soul lyinG dead
in thIs Vacant world, with eyEs
drained of excitement and life;
eyes trying to Understand the
imPurities of thIs world...
FantasiEs will continuE to exist
for the Lives of the iNnOcent and
as you Morph and blOom into a butteRfly,
you will understand my hatrEd for this
Death awaits usStanding there in the darkness
Its aura blazing dark light
You won't be able to run
Let alone be able to fight
I yearn to know how it feels
To be claimed by the Reaper
Waiting for the time to come
Falling deeper and deeper
What drugs can do to youEndorphins flood my system, leaving
me intoxicated, gasping for more of
this precious and exquisite taste It
reminds me of the sun beaming through
the child's imaginary cottage, a granny
smiling radiantly, wrinkles carving her
grey tinted, wise eyes of experience.
The fall from the state cracks my skull,
leaving me confused and frantic to
find what once rightfully belonged to
the abused druggie living on the streets.
The ecstasy washes out, the detoxification
evident from my raspy intakes of breath
and dull blacked marks beneath my eyes.
I yearn for that high, the one that brought
me away from the pains and the troubles -
the one that brought me to extreme bliss
and to complete and utter insanity. I look at
the pills sitting in the callused palm of mine,
hesitantly, I drag it slowly to my mouth, and
down it goes, the endorphin flooding till
my death by drugs.
What I WantDid I ask for your help?
No, don't think I did,
Apparently, though, I'm just a kid.
I don't want your disease,
I'm already dead,
At least now you can't play with my head.
Don't force-feed me your lies,
I want to keep me,
And not be wrecked by society.
I know you're not perfect,
Well, neither am I,
I am sick of living in a lie.
Do you see all these scars?
The inside ones too,
No, because you think it's all taboo.
Help me to disappear,
It's what we both need,
I just can't cope with life's harsh stampede.
Please don't try to save me,
As I yearn for death,
But will you feel bad at my last breath?
Don't you dare act sad,
When we say goodbye,
And don't you dare to look me in the eye.
I know you're not sorry,
But please don't worry,
Because I'm not either.
I know I need your help,
I just don't want it,
What I want is a nice cosy casket.
the breakupI took your heart and tore it in two.
You said ," I love you!" I said,"yeah, me too!"
I left you behind without a care
while I went out and partied else where,
And then, one night, I did you wrong,
I met someone and stayed out too long
When I got home, the house was bare
I looked around and could find you nowhere
Thats when the reality of things set in,
I realized what a fool I was cause
Baby, you are a blessing !!!
So, here I am in the pouring rain,
Trying to win your love again,
You looked at me with a tear in your eye,
You turned you back and said,"goodbye!!"
Now, Im left here, cold and alone,
Empty inside because you are gone......
Figure It OutI've figured it out
Why when I think of you I break down
Because everyday I plunge deeper into this blackness
And I can't see the truth
As horrible as that sounds
But I don't know
If your just what you seem
A liar and deciever
Or if the way you look at me means something
But the reason I'm sobbing is simple
I think I'm falling in love with you
Slowly, but steadily
And I can't make it stop
No matter how bad I want to
It would be better for everyone if I was gone
And I didn't stumble over my own feet around you
I'm crying because I know I'll get hurt
But I'm powerless to stop myself from wanting you
I Want To Find HerI believe, somewhere on this enormous planet, she exists.
I am desperately hoping that one day my heart will lead me to her.
My one love. My only love. My everything.
I hold on to the hope that I will meet her, I will get to know her,
and when she and I least expect it, best friends will become soul-mates.
I want to find her and I want to give her the world. My world.
Somewhere, she is waiting. She believes in me, she knows I exist.
She will know me when I look into her eyes.
When she feels my lips against hers for the very first time,
all that I am, all that I have, and all I will ever be will belong to her.
I Just AmI am not bullied in school nor am I popular.
I am just there. Keeping my head as low as I can.
I am not beaten at home nor am I loved.
I am just there. Failing unspoken expectations.
I am not a femme nor am I butch.
I am just female. Wearing practical clothes.
I am not a lesbian nor am I straight.
I just happen to have fallen in love with a girl.
I am not stupid nor am I a genius.
I just think. Sometimes a little too deeply.
I am not ambitious nor am I a slacker.
I just work. In case someday I find a dream.
I am not fat nor am I skinny.
I just eat. Then work out for a few hours.
I am not over the edge nor am I content.
I just exist. For no apparent reason.
I was not born this way nor did I choose it.
I just am. With no explanations.
I am not pure evil nor am I perfect.
I just am.
AngelOpened my locker, saw a note entitled 'To C~'
With my curiosity burning, I proceeded to read...
I know while you're reading this
You must be quite mad at me.
You might want to tear this up
All I ask is hear me out, please.
I know you need an explanation
I have some things to say.
I'm a mess, filled with guilt
But I'm writing to you anyway.
If only you could see me now
See the pain clouding my eyes.
Angel, now that you're not here
The summer sun no longer shines.
Every where I look I see your face
You haunt my dreams every night.
To see you smiling without me
Is such a heart-breaking sight.
I know what I did to you was wrong
Letting you go was a dumb mistake...
If I could turn back the time
It would be a mistake I wouldn't make.
I know that I hurt you, hurt you bad
And Angel, I am sincerely sorry.
If you could find it in your heart
Could you ever forgive me?
Do you know how hard it was
Watching my dream girl walk away.
"You were the one who told me to go"
I know this is what you
I watch them watch youPeople look at you and have no idea
The things you have seen, the hell
It's because you smile through it all
And they want the smile to be for them
I laugh as they try to get your attention
Stumbling over the lie they just invented
Hounding you from your car to the door
You politely smile, and offer warm thanks
They don't see it though how it hurts so
Never knowing their words destroy you
Words meant to flatter, defeat instead
It's not their fault, they don't know you
They don't know your heart is his alone
They don't know how he saved your life
They adore you from where they stand
But the you inside, hates to be adored
I can see it in your sad eyes, the disdain
These are not the men you want to see
And every second he is not here with you
You crumble, you stumble, you lose it
Fix Your HeadUnderstand him
Don't over think things
Just remember all the good things he's done
Be kind to him
If you trust him, he won't hurt you
But this isn't only about you
Its about him too
Slip under the radar
Take him with you
Escape from the insanity
I'll Leave You HangingPurpled hollows and aching hands,
Hair hanging in limp strands,
Lips open yet without breath,
A stunning caricature of death.
Rope burning red on porcelain skin,
Eerie glow and eerily thin,
Dancing in the stale air,
Face grey, no longer fair.
Flying but no wings,
As the crow sings,
Swinging like a pendant,
A losing defendant.
"Get a life" you said,
But I was already dead,
"Don't die" you'll cry,
As the rope helps me fly.
Alone for far too long,
We both know I'm not that strong,
Remembered or forgotten, it's up to you,
But know that this is because of all you do.
Finding tragic loveRealisation has hit me,
I have loved you all along.
Denying it will not help
my feelings so very strong.
You either like me or
Dislike me to the core.
Telling me you do both?
Perhaps that's all I can ask for.
My heart breaks 'cause of the truth -
That you look for another.
You will never think of me.
Watching you makes me suffer.
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