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I'm the pathetic friend?Do not think of me
As the pathetic friend,
As the worthless one -
Without a happy end.
Don't you dare belittle me.
Today, I have had enough;
I snapped and I shot back
To show you I've had it tough.
Do you think you are better?
Better and smarter than us all?
Wait, as I'm coming for you,
We'll see who takes the fall.
Words of a muteIt all started with you
This obsession with pain
Although you had nothing
Nothing for you to gain
I tried to feign ignorance
Turns out I was too weak
Listening to your torments
I've forgotten how to speak
One night, the words got to me
Tears were tumbling down my face
My soul will never be the same
Anger has had it replaced
Just another love poemThis is quite informal,
But let me say it here.
This poem is about
What I hold most dear.
A few simple words from him
Can make me feel so glad.
And when he insults me,
I don't even feel that mad.
I'm the girl who made the vow -
To never fall for someone.
My heart once woven tightly,
Has suddenly become undone.
Blood carvings of a heartI'm sick from this love, priceless
Thoughts of you every night.
Despair clings on my heart;
Realizing I'm not alright.
I'm sick from this love, thinking -
Of the patterns of the knife.
Crimson flowing with beauty,
Tainting the canvas of my life.
I'm sick from this love, tumbling
Dark red droplets start to smear.
Showing the carve of a heart
And everything I dream and fear.
To my secret crushHe broke my heart, teaching me the
way this world works. Telling me that
in life, no one is trustworthy and you
can never escape being ridiculed by
the faces of discretion. He told me I
was hideous, and had the intelligence
of a block; he made me lose control
of myself, leaving me in a state of
never-ending solitary depression.
Yet he showed me life. He always told
me to stay true to myself, strong. He
always told me to ignore what idiotic
people would say about me. He always
told me to never give up. With tears
tumbling, my lips would still show the
Funny how hate turns to undying love.
A burning sensation constantly stings
my heart, filling it with uncertainty. It
twists and turns, testing my patience.
My thoughts constantly wander to this
boy who taught me how to stand on my
own, challenging the world.
A boy who I ended up loving.
A cruel worldDon't you hate that feeling? The feeling
of gullibility and innocence that this
world is a beauty left untainted, pure.
Behold this enlightenment, this world
is not pure. It is big, it is corrupted and it
is a cruel world. Get that straight.
Rule one: no strong relationships. Be it
your best friends or family. One day, they
will leave you either by choice or through
death when that happens, you'll be left
broken, battered and bent on the side.
Don't be naive. No one stays, no matter
what you say. They live on in our souls?
Bullshit. Once you're alone in this weary
world you will realise that they have left
you and even if you die for them
nothing will bring them back.
No one wants a stupid personDo you know how it feels to be played?
Human emotions flickering on and off
like that broken light bulb, clinging on
to you when you radiate intelligence,
and mistreating you when you're stupid.
First step: the monsters unleash their
true colours, calloused claws cutting
a bloodied mark of my heart, the drips
of dark red. They ridicule you, without
any guilt or thought for how you feel
Second step: then they transform into
feeble and fictitious felines. They strut
and attempt to capture you into their
idiotic game. They purr and plead for
your help, ever so plastic-like.
Third step: you make a mistake and
help their ''apparent'' sorry selves.
Then they take that help, unleash their
vicious claws for the true monsters that
they are and rip that help to shreds,
leaving you broken
and soon enough dead.
Friends smile and leavePeople are really fucked up.
There isn't much to say.
I hate all my friends, because
They always lie and betray.
No friendship lasts long as
True colours will show in time.
The patterns of black and white
The sign of all their crimes.
''Friends'' play you in their games;
They love to cheat and deceive.
Readying you for your death,
Then they'll smile and leave.
You will always be sadImagine this sad and simple scene.
A person sits in the darkness, the
only light shining from an inanimate
object. There is no one at home; this
house is big and lonely. Their eyes
drift rapidly from place to place, they
yearn for stability yet it doesn't happen.
Then the waters start to burn their eye.
They fall uncontrollably, stinging their
flawless face. Suicidal thoughts come
and go, the pain ebbs in and out, but
the darkness forever stays in her soul.
I need to escape this hell, and
remind myself how it felt to be the
innocent person who always had a
chance to be happy. The devil whispers
quickly in my ear saying:
You have no chance.
What I WantDid I ask for your help?
No, don't think I did,
Apparently, though, I'm just a kid.
I don't want your disease,
I'm already dead,
At least now you can't play with my head.
Don't force-feed me your lies,
I want to keep me,
And not be wrecked by society.
I know you're not perfect,
Well, neither am I,
I am sick of living in a lie.
Do you see all these scars?
The inside ones too,
No, because you think it's all taboo.
Help me to disappear,
It's what we both need,
I just can't cope with life's harsh stampede.
Please don't try to save me,
As I yearn for death,
But will you feel bad at my last breath?
Don't you dare act sad,
When we say goodbye,
And don't you dare to look me in the eye.
I know you're not sorry,
But please don't worry,
Because I'm not either.
I know I need your help,
I just don't want it,
What I want is a nice cosy casket.
I watch them watch youPeople look at you and have no idea
The things you have seen, the hell
It's because you smile through it all
And they want the smile to be for them
I laugh as they try to get your attention
Stumbling over the lie they just invented
Hounding you from your car to the door
You politely smile, and offer warm thanks
They don't see it though how it hurts so
Never knowing their words destroy you
Words meant to flatter, defeat instead
It's not their fault, they don't know you
They don't know your heart is his alone
They don't know how he saved your life
They adore you from where they stand
But the you inside, hates to be adored
I can see it in your sad eyes, the disdain
These are not the men you want to see
And every second he is not here with you
You crumble, you stumble, you lose it
the breakupI took your heart and tore it in two.
You said ," I love you!" I said,"yeah, me too!"
I left you behind without a care
while I went out and partied else where,
And then, one night, I did you wrong,
I met someone and stayed out too long
When I got home, the house was bare
I looked around and could find you nowhere
Thats when the reality of things set in,
I realized what a fool I was cause
Baby, you are a blessing !!!
So, here I am in the pouring rain,
Trying to win your love again,
You looked at me with a tear in your eye,
You turned you back and said,"goodbye!!"
Now, Im left here, cold and alone,
Empty inside because you are gone......
Figure It OutI've figured it out
Why when I think of you I break down
Because everyday I plunge deeper into this blackness
And I can't see the truth
As horrible as that sounds
But I don't know
If your just what you seem
A liar and deciever
Or if the way you look at me means something
But the reason I'm sobbing is simple
I think I'm falling in love with you
Slowly, but steadily
And I can't make it stop
No matter how bad I want to
It would be better for everyone if I was gone
And I didn't stumble over my own feet around you
I'm crying because I know I'll get hurt
But I'm powerless to stop myself from wanting you
Everything you've been working toward, broken.
Every well reasoned arguement you made, outspoken.
Every time you reach out for help, scarred.
Every bridge you've ever walked across, charred.
Each word was spun from nothing but the best,
But every single one was thrown out like the rest.
Nothing you say can change how she feels,
So just go back to staring at her heels.
Her back is turned, a perfected art,
As I pick up the pieces of my shattered heart,
It's times like this when there's nothing left,
When you lose your soul, mere petty theft.
How I Disappear How I Disappear
Pulling away from those I'll hurt,
Prise my cuts away from my shirt,
Say goodbye to those I find dear,
This is how I disappear.
No longer fighting the demons in my head,
Allowing them to pull me into dread,
Facing directly at my fear,
This is how I disappear.
No note, no calls, complete isolation,
I walk openly to my damnation.
Frozen in the night, a single tear,
This is how I disappear.
AngelOpened my locker, saw a note entitled 'To C~'
With my curiosity burning, I proceeded to read...
I know while you're reading this
You must be quite mad at me.
You might want to tear this up
All I ask is hear me out, please.
I know you need an explanation
I have some things to say.
I'm a mess, filled with guilt
But I'm writing to you anyway.
If only you could see me now
See the pain clouding my eyes.
Angel, now that you're not here
The summer sun no longer shines.
Every where I look I see your face
You haunt my dreams every night.
To see you smiling without me
Is such a heart-breaking sight.
I know what I did to you was wrong
Letting you go was a dumb mistake...
If I could turn back the time
It would be a mistake I wouldn't make.
I know that I hurt you, hurt you bad
And Angel, I am sincerely sorry.
If you could find it in your heart
Could you ever forgive me?
Do you know how hard it was
Watching my dream girl walk away.
"You were the one who told me to go"
I know this is what you
Disappearing MemoriesThe floorboards creak under my weight - holding only because of
the caked-on dust, making its home there
centuries ago. The windows let in dull light as the sun
sets outside of this night-dweller of a house.
Dust mites float around, twinkling in the light and
violently spinning in my wake. Creaks and shutters meet
at my feet as the house settles further into its foundation.
It's almost impossible to believe anyone had ever found happiness here.
Her lies whisper through the rotten wood, dancing through
the room and laughing with the wind. She -the last resident
of this shrinking palace - disappears with a final goodbye.
I stand in her shadow, she, the house, and I contributing to a
Finding tragic loveRealisation has hit me,
I have loved you all along.
Denying it will not help
my feelings so very strong.
You either like me or
Dislike me to the core.
Telling me you do both?
Perhaps that's all I can ask for.
My heart breaks 'cause of the truth -
That you look for another.
You will never think of me.
Watching you makes me suffer.
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