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Do you know what it feels like?
To feel so socially awkward
around people that you feel
uncomfortable in your own skin,
knowing that you don't fit in.
And, you walk away...
thinking that being alone
will be better for you -
but you're wrong.
You just feel even more  alone;
even more rejected from society;
perhaps even sad, in some way.

What do you do while waiting for someone?
As you wait, and wait, and wait for them -
hoping they'll come soon
lest you seem like a loner
walking aimlessly around,
causing people to pity you.
And your face gets hot,
you start to sweat because
they know -
they know of how alone you are
and they feel sorry for you.
I find it difficult to talk to people.
The sheer amount of comments that I've received and read have been overwhelming. So many of you feel the same way I do and truthfully, I don't know whether I should feel happy or sad that you can relate to this poem.

As always, I read all the comments but this time I will not be responding to all of them as I usually would.
If you really do want me to reply to you, please send me a note instead.

Thank you. :hug:
Fun fact! Turns out the day that I wrote this poem - April 2nd - was World Autism Day.
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ladyblackbird13 Featured By Owner Sep 27, 2015
Oh yes. I know that feeling.
Smidow Featured By Owner Sep 18, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
This is exactly how I feel, wonderful poem! Love it.
Antnosunshyn Featured By Owner Sep 18, 2014
I feel the exact same as every word of this poem. Literally 100%.. Man, it sucks. Nice poem :D
BruiseViolet01 Featured By Owner Jan 11, 2014
Yep, that's me. :( But it's nice to read things I can relate to.
ElfOwl245 Featured By Owner Oct 23, 2013
Yup, I have no friends because I'm afraid of talking to people...
NutInAShell Featured By Owner Oct 21, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
And when I do say something, its totally inappropriate. Sigh. I completely relate to this.
MolotovGTM Featured By Owner Sep 24, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
You have been featured here Link :rose:
therealanonymous Featured By Owner Oct 13, 2013
thank you! 
MrYoursTruly Featured By Owner Sep 3, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
I can relate to this. Definitely. Although, on the Internet it seems so much easier to interact with others because you have a common area of interest to talk about, and I can't really say the same thing about real life. This is so well written!
AskSasuke-Uchiha Featured By Owner Aug 25, 2013
(( I was reminded over and over how awkward I am... <.< And it's true... I relate to this too much. ;n; ))
MophisTea Featured By Owner Aug 1, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
I feel and relate this 100%.
superbacon117 Featured By Owner Jul 29, 2013  Student Interface Designer
I can't even describe how much this relates to my life.
xMikideru Featured By Owner Jul 29, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
love it c: 
i can relate alot. 
mysweetfishie Featured By Owner Jul 29, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
I agree...
mi-ca-13 Featured By Owner Jul 28, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
I relate.
sirenophile Featured By Owner Jun 11, 2013
Well said with that poem.

I can definitely relate, especially in my younger years when I was very shy and quiet. I didn't know how to deal with people and they really did not know how to deal with me. I'm coming to terms with my introversion, have gotten over most of my shyness, but still feel socially awkward and am usually not good at making friends. It's not easy finding confidence in yourself or throwing yourself at the world. You will probably find it easier with smaller groups of people that large ones; if you get over the terror of parties you may find yourself simply bored by them. Crowded rooms aren't for everyone and they don't need to be.

Reading over the comments, I feel that I should point out there is a difference between being an introvert, being shy, being social awkward, having social anxiety, and having autism. Those things often overlap and those with any one of them will usually relate to this.

I think it usually gets better with age (especially after high school), depending on the cause. Shyness is something you can get over (and maybe being socially awkward too) and introversion isn't something you need to get over while those with social anxiety disorder, autism, and the like may need medication and will probably have to deal with it for the rest of their lives.
MonteDeNeko300 Featured By Owner Jun 10, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
It's hard. It's like you try to talk but you're afraid that you're going to screw up and say something awkward.I feel sad and weak and a coward for tryig to speak up but you just can't. I lost many people due to that :(. I recently lost one of my best guy friends ever because I'm afraid of talking to him ;( I used to like him and I'm afraid of hugging him or have a conversation with him because I might do something to embaress him. We don't talk anymore and I feel invisible around others :( I'm afraid of social rejection and losing more people due to my awkwardness. :( I try to comvince myself that I'm fine but In reality I'm crumbling on the inside... how long can I last without completley breaking down. I may never knoe but one day I will find my voice..
chibifuhrer Featured By Owner May 28, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
I felt relieved when I read this not because a lot of people feel the same way, but because some people actually understand. It's hard, really, and I don't like it one bit. Sure, I convince myself that I like being alone, that I don't need people to survive, but I also know that it's not true. I feel sad and helpless. I try to socialize, but I become wary of it, and then I become afraid and mindful of everyone, of what they're thinking, what they're saying. I try not to care. I just stay away from them most of the time, because I don't want them to feel sorry for me because I'm alone. But really, that isn't what I want.
KuraiTenshiV Featured By Owner May 12, 2013  Hobbyist
Yes relating to this is easy. I dont do well in crowds which makes doing anything annoyingly hard. This is a wonderful poem i absolutely love it
SgtSkittle Featured By Owner Apr 25, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
jinxkatty7 Featured By Owner Apr 21, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
I have such a hard time talking to people. Especially when they really care about me. Because I feel like if I act like myself then they won't want to be around me. I like being online because I don't have to look at people when I'm in my room.
Cygam-7 Featured By Owner Apr 20, 2013   Traditional Artist
Yes I know exactly how that feels
kyoyuki13 Featured By Owner Apr 15, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
I love it! i can relate so much to this...TT^TT
SheppardTheWolf8 Featured By Owner Apr 9, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
My God, I know how you feel. This is the poem of my life....
Souders Featured By Owner Apr 8, 2013
Dem feels man...
Selenalunarox Featured By Owner Apr 8, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
This is such a relatable poem, especially for someone like me who has social anxiety :/

Great work :)
Buzzard09 Featured By Owner Apr 7, 2013  Hobbyist Photographer
goddamn the imaginary audience... I feel you, dear. <3

"High school never ends ah-oh ah-ah-aaoh ah-ah-aaoh .... "
chaosheart13 Featured By Owner Apr 7, 2013
A lot of people feel this way, apparently. AWKWARD TURTLES UNIT! :iconsuperw00tplz:
odieee Featured By Owner Apr 7, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
so acurate s:
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GarrettVFinazzo Featured By Owner Apr 8, 2013  Professional Digital Artist
Yeah... this is spam.
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GarrettVFinazzo Featured By Owner Apr 8, 2013  Professional Digital Artist
Man, you are a drain on society.
TheOneBehindYou Featured By Owner Apr 7, 2013  Student Writer
... You get it.
AugustFloKite Featured By Owner Apr 7, 2013
I feel...that I am the ideal description of what you wrote in this poem. Although I know that it is nice to hear from others, whether in person or online, I always hit myself on the social glass barrier, seeing others but I myself cannot be seen or heard.

I may not have a lot of friends, but I also feel that I don't want to impede on their progress in life.
IsabelleRobin Featured By Owner Apr 5, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
I like :3
violetgraphica Featured By Owner Apr 5, 2013  Professional General Artist
Wow, while i was reading this, i felt like i wrote this, it's like u read my mind. . I do feel like this all the time, with almost everybody, even with my family; i just want to go to my room, & lock the door, & stay alone, it feel comfortable, but very sad & alone in the same time. . Thank you very much for this, amazing work :clap:
YNayib94 Featured By Owner Apr 4, 2013  Hobbyist Photographer
This poem is great. It's good to know that there are other's who feel the same way. But it's also bad because I know how much it hurts.
Dead-Levaithan Featured By Owner Apr 4, 2013  Student Digital Artist
TheThirdTwinWins Featured By Owner Apr 4, 2013
You say you find it difficult to talk to people, but every written word feels like a conversation to me. I know that feeling to but seeing how many people feel the same way cheers me up and make me smile. Maybe we can share it...
Nionai Featured By Owner Apr 4, 2013
The thing is with the whole conversation thing. It's difficult when in person because you face them face to face and if you say something wrong or they do, it's not as easy to click out or walk away.
Hopefully that makes sense to you ^^'
Hariya288 Featured By Owner Apr 3, 2013  Student
i know how this feels =/
Lifelessforest Featured By Owner Apr 3, 2013
I don't think being alone is that bad, I got used to it after a while. I just accepted that there was never going to be anyone who understood me. I stopped worrying about it after a while, thinking it was selfish of me to worry about being accepted by others. I would just be an extra object to take care of an extra burden of emotions and feelings.

I do have "friends" but in order to keep them I must remain worry-free and happy. I have to be careful to always talk uneducated and stupid so they feel more powerful and intelligent than me. But I also can't be too stupid or they will " beat the stupidity out of me". They call me a socially awkward bear-squirrel because I have the brain of a squirrel and the ugliness of an angry brown bear. I never smile. I flinch when someone raises their hand. I hate it when other people touch me. I don't do my homework in order to not get beat up (the grades at my school are posted in the hall way).
What can I do though? I'll feel the same if I don't have them as friends.
I wish that people who feel they need friends and feel socially awkward to not feel the need for human attention but, being human has cursed us in that way sadly.

For all of you who suffer from this don't kill or hurt yourself. Stay strong school is going to go by and you can leave your worries with it. Life is valuable. You have been given life and it would be a shame if you throw it away. All the babies and children in third world countries who wanted to live but died anyways. Their family WISHED AND PRAYED for the years or even months that suicidal people wasted being dead to be given to their children.
But you all probably don't want to hear this you just want to be comforted... So here is a hug for all the burdens and pains you have to endure. Stay strong...
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